day 14

I woke and wished my mum a happy birthday. I did some transcribing and watched a Ben Stiller Christmas movie. I showered... weighed myself twice. Once when I got up at 97.6kg and then before shower:

I begged my daughter to come to distract, but alas no. The house i want has an open day today... right when I'm in my appointment. So I'll go tomorrow. Tonight I think I will go to the movies and watch Moana 2 by myself.

My anxiety makes me so mad sometimes. The appointment was fine. It was uneventful. I got a discount with my aa card. Why did I have to be so nuts, running to the toilet, breathing erratically. I need to go to sleep for a week just to recoup. 

I'm nearly at the mall now. I really want to be at home painting and hiding from everyone. Perhaps soon. 

I like walking at midnight