Portraits - bad or good?

I started making a list of people Im going to paint... the people that Ive lost list got sooooooo long.

Its depressing and I started having really negative thoughts. Like scary negative. 

Zombie played on the radio, then Phil Collins sang 

"So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space. And there's nothin' left here to remind me. Just the memory of your face. Ooh, take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space. And you coming back to me is against the odds. And that's what I've got to face"

How did I lose so many? The common factor is me. I must be the problem. 

So I reached out to my friends, and they replied, and I sat in a cafe smiling and laughing and advicing and priding. My posture changed and my thoughts dissipated. 

I will continue with the portraits. Because I didnt lose them. They lost me. 

Lost

DH

MB

NM

RA

TP

CS

DW

KO

GJ

AG

RB

MG

MF

HW

LC

GJ 

And Ive done RA